NADA.. ZILCH.. NOTHING *HERE* FOR MOI IN THIS PARTICULAR STATE!

i think back to the time when amanda said to me on the phone, in a careless tone of voice, "YOU HAVE EVERYTHING HERE IN MINNESOTA! WHY DO YOU WANNA MOVE TO NEW YORK?!" i'm pretty sure that was when i STILL had my driving privileges to drive with a permit in minnesota. i've now gave up my driving privileges because no one cares enough about me to assist me in getting my driving privileges back. so now it's TRUE.. i have NOTHING here in minnesota. OH WELL! RIGHT AMANDA?! I GOT THIS! i got this right into another fucking state which actually has the RESOURCES for people who actually wanna do MORE with their lives besides depend on social security and haul their asses to some overrated excuse of a "rehabilitation facility" who gaslight people into believing they still need therapy- so they can get money from them. if you go there and ask them if i was ever a client there- i guarantee you they'll tell you that i never went there. SO WHERE DID THOSE FACEBOOK VIDEOS/CELL PHONE CLIPS AT COURAGE KENNY COME FROM IF I'VE NEVER BEEN THERE BEFORE?! MUST'VE BEEN AI! IF THAT'S THE STORY- I SHOULD BE LOOKING INTO WORKING TECHNOLOGY JOBS INSTEAD OF MINDLESSLY GETTING TAKEN ADVANTAGE OF BY SOME SAD EXCUSE OF A REHABILITATION FACILITY WHO RELIES ON PUTTING CLIENTS ON MACHINES MY LIVING ROOM WALL COULD DO. IN CASE YOU'RE SICK OF HEARING THIS FROM ME- IT TELLS YOU EXACTLY HOW MUCH NO ONE LISTENS TO ME. I KNOW THAT AFTER I KILL MYSELF (IF IT COMES TO THAT)- MY FAMILY WILL JUST CRY VICTIM AND SAY "SHE COULD'VE CAME TO ME.".. WHICH JUST MOTIVATES ME NOT TO DO IT, SO MY FAMILY DOESN'T RECEIVE UNNECESSARY ATTENTION. i'll just continue to TELL THE TRUTH ABOUT ALL OF THEM- SO PEOPLE SEE HOW HORRIBLE OF PEOPLE THEY REALLY ARE. call me "ungrateful" or wtf you want cathy but after YOUR MOM holds YOU in front of your dad while he's kicking her- MAYBE YOUR OPINION WILL ACTUALLY MATTER TO ME. SAME WITH MY SAD EXCUSE OF A "MOM".. ONCE YOU'VE ACTUALLY WORKED TO GET OUTTA YOUR SITUATION IN LIFE- WHAT YOU SAY WILL ACTUALLY FUCKING MATTER TO ME. ANYONE ELSE WANNA PLAY?! i'm kinda irritated after getting told i'd get a job- then them reversing it because after the supervisor asked me if i've ever worked for Iron Mountain before and i told him that i trained with them a long time ago, he cancelled my walk-through of the mailroom clerk job. i'm not really sure of the reason for him cancelling the job for me after i told him i heard of iron mountain and had trained with them before.. i thought that he might be more interested in hiring me because i was familiar with the job.. now i gotta figure out if that particular walk-through is the same job i wrote on my calendar tomorrow.. it probably is- knowing my luck. we'll see. i just looked and was just reminded of the job in the store at the mall of america i'm interviewing at tomorrow. i just gotta remember if they bring up the fact i don't have any retail experience on my resume that i DO have customer service job experience. i'm pretty sure that's one of the only factors that ultimately matters when you're selling things. so the customer wants to return to the store since they have good customer service there.